As I mentioned in a previous post, I was petrified of going to get my strings checked. Well, everything is normal, -however- I have an infection. The doctor couldn't find all the strings for all the discharge (sorry, gross, I know). I was given metronidazole to treat the infection, but I was wondering how efficient it is in cleaning me up; I don't want to have the IUD removed!

Hello! It's 4:04 in the a.m. (sleep not found..lame, I know) and guess who isn't asleep! I can tell you it's not from lack of interest of sleep.. you know what I'm going through; the tightness in the chest, the inexplicable fear of dying suddenly of a heart attack or brain aneurysm (hello, I am 26, brain! stop making me think like that), the heart palpitations and the feeling of impending DOOM! I still don't know what exactly my triggers are, well, yes I do. Age. I am constantly worrying/fearing my age. It seemed like yesterday I was in high school and now I am 4 short years away from 30. If you're female around my age, you understand. The constant looking in the mirror for lines that aren't there yet... To top it off, I am a returning student to UF and I'm the oldest one in the class. I'm thinking about talking to the school counselor, but I'm wondering if speaking with a community (like this one) will help me cope with whatever issues/fears I have and eventually cure me! :D I've been on anti-depressants before (I have PCOS and instead of making me a rage-machine like it did my sister, it makes me weepy and hopeless)and I don't want to venture that route again. So, anxiety/panic induced insomniacs UNITE!

So, this is LJ, huh.. Rather spacious, nice open windows, hardwood flooring.. I could get to like this. All in all, I have no idea why I've decided to open an LJ account,as I am usually -very- ...misanthropic? It's incredibly late but as have reached the half-way mark of Natsuo Kirino's "Out" I am understandably drained. Fantastic book, cannot reiterate that enough. I'm not one for that particular genre (crime/murder/horror) but I am certainly glad my professor had assigned it for us to read.